The Conqueror

Well, I am happy to say that this week I have gotten back on track with healthy eating despite more than enough temptation. My school was doing a spin on Hunger Games during dinner this Thursday, and, of course, prizes were candy and pop. On top of that, they had a cotton candy machine and popcorn machine. It smelled AMAZING. . . but I was good. I sat and ate my chicken, salad, and cottage cheese like a good girl. Well, I ate it and practically ran out of the cafeteria before I had a chance to even think about having "just one bite."

Even being back at my fiance's has proved to be a little easier. I have started planning for days where I just have to suck it up and accept that there will be meals I cannot eat with everyone else. Well, I can physically be with them, but I'll have to eat my greek yogurt or cottage cheese instead of what everyone else has. I think the fact that my surgery date is getting closer is definitely an added motivator, too. Only 30 days till my date!!!!

I'm also trying to get everything sorted out with my school as far as what things I will need after surgery is over. I think working with the school is almost as hard as trying to get insurance approval sometimes. I had to talk to the lady in charge of dining services so I could change to a lower meal plan since obviously I will not be eating as much as I am now. I met with her the second week in January. Then, I had to email her again last week in order to figure out why the change hadn't been updated on my student account. Turns out, I had to meet with the disabilities coordinator since changing my plan was considered an accommodation. This was news to me since no one told me I'd have to meet with her in order to have my meal plan change approved! Thankfully, I met with her the day after I found this out. Then I had to call my doctor to get a note from them saying that I'm not lying about getting surgery, and having half of my stomach removed means that I will be on a restricted diet. Now I'm just waiting on more approval. It's frustrating. I think it might be a conspiracy to try and deter me from changing it so I don't save money on my meal plan (I'll get an extra $1,000 back after changing my plan).

That being said, the biggest challenge I had was that I found out yesterday that my great-grandma had passed away, and I'm not sure if I will be able to make it back for the funeral. I can't turn to food as comfort. I don't want to ruin how good I've been doing this week. My fiance has been trying to keep me distracted, and being around my 2 year old nephew has helped. It still is tough just trying to find other outlets for coping. I'm trying to get a lot of class work done this weekend to keep busy, too. I have to get that done anyway so I'm not stressed about it while I'm dealing with all my surgery stuff. I hope I can get by without breaking down. She lived a long life, and I know I'll see her again someday.

Love you, Busha <3